Hey readers! How have you been? Apologies for the disappearance – many topics to write but time is a slippery thing (especially with a toddler) that at the end of a day I may not have the energy to type. A late, yet important topic I wanted to bring up about taking chances and why we should grab them by the balls.
I spoke to a friend of mine just recently that in the past couple of months, I have been feeling mediocre. I felt that my life is a cycle of doing the same things everyday. Do I sound like I’m complaining? I’m not, but the truth is that it made me feel like I’m not going anywhere. Stagnant, stuck and being in this comfort zone that isn’t making me grow and/or become better.
I didn’t voice my feelings to the husband, as I can’t rely on him to solve all my problems. So instead, I encouraged myself to do something worthwhile that might give me feel like I’m ‘valuable’. I jumped back into freelancing for small jobs and it felt so rewarding. The pay wasn’t what motivated me, it was the push to learn about other industries, topics and at the core of it, being ‘needed’ professionally.
After I had gotten a few jobs, I told the husband and he (of course) was very supportive and proud that I made this step. Initially I was scared – I kept on thinking, ‘What if this decreases my time with the family?’ or ‘I don’t know anything about this topic’ and so on. Insecurities are such a bummer when you fall into its’ claws, which is why you need to find a way to make it motivate you.
Fast forward and I was approached by a few close friends for another opportunity to not only expand my knowledge, but also take a huge jump into something I didn’t think I would do. If you’re interested, I’ll keep you updated once I’m able to give sneak peeks but it was such a perfect timing and opportunity for me.
You see, I wrote about embracing being a stay-at-home mum and all, but my mind still holds onto that fear of being judged along with the stigma that is given to this role. Am I wrong to be afraid? No. Fear, just like insecurity, can help us push ourselves in becoming better and grow. Just because you fear something, doesn’t mean you should avoid it at all cost. Instead, you should embrace the journey and if it makes you stumble, learn from it and become better.
So what I’m trying to say is, don’t be afraid of where you are right now. Know that when you’ve hit that burnout or stagnant button, that’s the cue to pick yourself back up again. As mentioned, grab any opportunities that comes your way and enable yourself to grow. Take those risks and sometimes, ignore the voices in your head that tells you otherwise.
Lots of love :*